A spiritual author’s personal journey to awakening
A near death experience gives Cari La Grange Murphy her life’s purpose and opens up a portal to creativity
GUEST COLUMN: CARI LA GRANGE MURPHY — As a spiritual and inspirational author, I’m often asked when, where, and how my spiritual journey began. As a child I grew up on ten acres of land in south Texas surrounded by loving parents, siblings, and a large extended family. We were devoted Methodists, who attended church every Sunday, while I simultaneously attended Catholic school during the week. It’s fair to say that I was fully ingrained in organized religion.
Although much of it was a beautiful experience, I still sought something “more” in life. My elders’ and teachers’ answers did not quench my thirst for deeper spiritual knowledge, understanding and connection. In fact, they seemed to steer me away from questions that went beyond the traditional teachings. Their responses confused me but aroused in me a greater interest in seeking the answers.
I sought solace within myself and in nature. I was always an introspective child, spending a great deal of time alone outdoors. I felt closely connected to nature and recall the feelings of peace and serenity that I often experienced as I laid on the grass in the evenings and stared longingly into the night sky. The stars seemed to be twinkling specifically in my direction, almost as though they were communicating with me in their own silent yet beautifully powerful way.
I began studying a wide range of religions during my teenage years and found myself deeply intrigued with the real purpose for our existence. I wanted to know the how’s and the why’s associated with human behavior. Naturally, I delved into psychology and spirituality. These interests eventually led me to get my undergraduate degree in psychology and sociology and later specialize in counseling psychology.
After my formal education I reached a point where the traditional route simply didn’t feel right for me. The traditional counseling methods for psychologists seemed to be lacking a key component for me: the presence of the soul. At that point, I chose to begin my writing career, writing articles for local and national magazines, and doing freelance work for greeting card companies. Most of my writings were in the fields of psychology, health, love, and self improvement. I enjoyed my work and continued to delve deeper into the realm of spirituality, and the endless sources of information I found on this incredible topic called out to my soul.
The illness that changed my life
The big shift and “awakening” in my life came at the age of twenty six. In the fall of 1996 I became very ill, suffering a high fever, and not knowing what was wrong with me. My mother came into town and insisted that we go to the Diagnostic Center in Houston (where I was living and still live today). Subject to what seemed like every medical test under the sun, I was sitting in one of those cubicles where they take your blood. That is when it all began.
I was weak, slowly sinking towards the floor and slipping away from my body. I struggled to remain present, aware, and (for lack of a better word at the time) alive. I had lost consciousness. Suddenly images of my entire past life rapidly flashed in front of me. Profoundly meaningful images played like a movie of my life, in fast forward. I saw times joyful, challenging, significant, and despairing. I felt them as deeply as I saw them. As quickly as it began, the experience ended. I came back into my body and opened my eyes.
The first thing I saw was my mother, who was disheveled and panicked, and I heard her sorrowful cries like that of a mother who had just thought she lost their child. Beside her were three or four nurses and several doctors, all hovering around me with looks of deep concern, sadness, and shock. I had been “out” for some time, and yet I was back. I had left my body temporarily and now I was back. Little did I know, in that moment I had a new mission. My life was about to change in varied ways.
The experience shocked my mother so strongly that we didn’t even discuss the event again until about a year ago. She told me she had blocked out the memory. From time to time, over the years, I had attempted to discuss the significance of the event and how deeply it changed my life. Yet, she seemingly believed that my writing and my world expanding in the ways that it did after that near death experience were simply a natural part of my personal development.
In reality, her impressions couldn’t have been further from the truth. The experience had fully awakened my soul. With my newly expanded state of awareness, my life’s course had drastically shifted. I remembered my truth. I remembered who I was and why I was here as a spiritual be-ing in this physical body.
After the event, I was consigned to bed rest for a month. During that time I was like a sponge, soaking up every insight and bit of information I could find on near death experiences, life after “death” and anything spiritual related. It was as though a portal had opened within me and I was being drawn to everything I needed to remember the truth of my limitless, eternal being.
Discovering my spiritual “muse”
That same portal also allowed information to flow through me, via my writing, expanding my entire view on spirituality and life in the physical world we live in. Poetic words, messages, and musings continued to come through me daily with perfect ease. Like an open faucet within me, all the wisdom from my higher self was now flowing through me in perfect, divine ways.
The messages impacted my world on a very deep level. I was living life with new eyes, a new vision based on my expanded perspective of reality. I was truly beginning to understand the meaning of life, a journey continuing even today. I continue to grow, evolve, and expand with each passing day.
It’s a conscious choice. It’s not always the easiest choice, but my soul won’t allow me to remain stagnant. I am continuously striving to expand my awareness and understanding of this vast universe that we are all a part of.
The fascinating thing I’ve discovered since my near death experience (what I now consider my true awakening) is that the more I learn, grow, and expand, the more I realize how much more growth, learning, and expansion I have yet to experience! I have now devoted the last thirteen years of my life to what I feel is my true soul purpose: relaying the messages of spirit to others through my writing.
I am continually fascinated with life and the beauty that surrounds me. I have written five books and countless articles on subjects that naturally flow through me and desire expression. I’m almost finished with my sixth book and feel more excited about my journey every day. Making a difference in the lives of others truly feeds and nourishes my soul. I know, within the deepest recesses of who I am, that this is why I’m here and this is what I’m meant to be doing. It’s certainly been an exciting ride!
Cari LaGrange Murphy is a best-selling inspirational and spiritual author, and founder and CEO of Empowerment Coaching Solutions. Her book, Create Change Now, can be ordered from Amazon. Visit her at Create Change Now.
Read Cari’s previous articles for Soul’s Code: My daily choice: Love, not the temptation of separation and One hundred ways to create change now: Reflections for personal transformation.